I never had the childhood ive wanted my entire life. Its been taken away from me. My life was nothing I had wanted it to become..until I was 11 years old. I wish I could remember good things about my childhood though. The past tends to haunt my mind and these memories I have stuck into my head. I dont know what to do with myself. Im hapy right now..but Ive contemplated so many thngs..ive even tried things i wll never do again. Ive tried to commit suicide..but it didnt work for me. If its not supposed to work for me then do I have a purpose in being on this earth? what is my purpose??..I never knew..until I met te love of my life..He has changed me for the beter and my life has changed so much. I still have my rough times..but its almost nothing like my childhood..ill never forget how my dad treated me. I was shit to him. I was simply nothing. I will never forget it and He will never se the smile on my face again that was taken away from me the day I was born.