Suicide..... What can I say about suicide...... Suicide, of coarse kills people, then it kills their souls, but it doesn't just kill that person, but it kills the people in those people's lives, effects and tramatizes them for life. I just don't get why people find suicide to be the answer to their pain when it's not. What goes through their minds when they get ready to do what they do, if it's hanging themsleves, shooting, stabbing, etc etc etc.... Do they even think of once how their love ones feel or people that actruly care?, it's sadden me that this world is such a land of confession that they only way out is that way.

I myself am someone that thought about suicide something I never talked about at all and that not many people know about. What kepted me from not doing it I don't know. Maybe my faith, and the love I had for those in my life, even though I felt at times I had no one ( and still do at times).

I really don't know and I've also have witnessed suicide hands on, when I was in the 6th grade a girl that was a litle older then me jumped off a bridage and hanged herself right in front of me and I never forgot it and kills me right now that a lot of my brothers and sisters are hurting so much. It's hard to hang on sometimes.

But as I go through my own battle right now, I am trying to help others get through theirs, by being there for them, talking to them, sending them to places for help if they need it and offering to help in anyway or form I can, but at the same time it drains, me it drives me insane and it hurts me so deeply to know that my brothers and sisters are hurting so bad, but I can't give up on them I just can't, but it's also killing me inside, but I most be there even if it drives me insane. I love all my brothers and sisters deeply and hold them all within my heart. I just can't let them go and leave them in the dust, I most be there because maybe just maybe I'll make a diffrence in their lives and help them in same way or form. Just Maybe.

I leave you with this:
Be Strong and have streangth you're one of kind. and when there's a struggle there's a blessing right a round the corner.

Do remember my brothers and sisters, that you are loved and their are people out there that can help you and be there for you and love you more then you'll ever imagine. If you hurting please reach out for help, and those that are not reach your hands out to your fellow brothers and sisters and help them because you never know just how much of a diffrence you can make in someones life just for being there.

Take care my brothers and sisters.

God bless,
Crystal

PS please forgive my typos