After I saw the video Inside the fire,I start to think about my past life.And hell I was shocked,cause I register how much I lost.In the past 20 Years I stand 13 times in front of a grave to say goodbye to a friend of mine.9 of them were killed in an accident,2 have taken an overdose of heroin ( I think it´s a kind of suicide too),2 have hanged oneself.I got a lot of mixed emotions,I start to cry about the loss and I remember all the calls I get,and at the same time I begin to smile cause I remember the good times we had and all the shit we have done together,and I´m happy that all of them were a part of my life and I miss them all.
But the worst things that happend were 2 failed suicides.The first is 18 Years ago,a friend of mine take his few weeks old daughter and drove with her to the forest,he laid her on the ground and oversized her with gasoline and burnt her alive,then he tried to hang up himself,but he was to chicken hearted to do this.And 4 Years ago a girl friend of mine killed her two daughters (4 and 8Years old).She gave them sleeping pills and as they were asleep she laid a pillow on her faces and choke them down.
Then she swallow a lot of sleeping pills but her husband found her and she was saved.Sometimes the life can be so unfair.