"Inside the Fire" moment
I was just wondering whom among us has gone through something dramatic that has shaped the person for whom he or she is.
I'll go first:
Last year, I was going to school for Film down in Florida when I flew back home to surprise a friend of mine at her graduation. For about a month I told this girl that I had no way of getting back to go to her graduation, which (in fact) I already bought the plane ticket. I thought it was awesome that her graduation was during Mother's Day Weekend. "Cool, I can hit two birds with one stone!" The only thing that sucked was I needed to leave Sunday night because I had class in the morning. My Mom went with me to the airport that Sunday afternoon. That was the last time I saw my Mom's smile. Early Monday morning, her body gave up and she went to Heaven's fishing pond to finally go fishing with her dad. I didn't get the messages that my sister was leaving me on my cell because my battery on my phone was about to die...so I turned it off during class. While in class, I received a message that I needed to call home. When I did...that's when my sister told me the news. I have never broke down like I did. I know I scared everyone around me. I felt like I lost my reason for living. This real reason I went to college in the first place was because of my Mom, and now she's gone. I didn't know what to do...I still don't. I had never thought about suicide until that day. I pray no one ever has to feel what I felt that day, but I know it will still happen because that is life. I, also, know that I will see her again one day. That is what keeps me going everyday.
Alright, enough of my sob story...who's next?
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I totally understand where
I totally understand where you're coming from. It took months for lung cancer to finally take my dad's life. I watched it happening each day as I tried to make him comfortable. He was the center of my universe, and I, his. He was the one person in the world I could truly count on for unconditional love. I wanted to go with him. He told me "you still have work to do." I won't let my heart believe he's gone. That's how I get through. So many things have happened over the years since he died that made me think of how much different things would be if he was still here. But like he said, it's MY work to do... I held him as he took his last breaths & I'll never forget the feeling of the end - it's indescribable.
That's why I can't watch the video again. Even hearing the song brings the images back after having seen the video.
Thank you for sharing your story. I needed to get that out too. Can't even talk to the hubby & tell him why the video affected me so much - he's an eye-roller...
See http://www.myspace.com/dejavu4u222 for songs from the guys before David... a little pacifier while you wait for Indestructible - THEY ROCK!!!! (videos here: http://www.youtube.com/dejavu4u22)
And check out the long-awaited remake of Midlife Crisis & Liberate remixed for The Matrix movie here: http://www.youtube.com/originaldisturbedfan
"All your belief cannot absolve your sin."
eye-rollers usually never
eye-rollers never know why they are rolling their eyes in the first place...eye say...how sad for them... *rolls eyes at the eye-rollers*
eye'm so sorry for the
eye'm so sorry for the excruciating pain you felt...but that is why we are THE DISTURBED ONES...awakened in a sense to a "greater self" from something terrible we have experienced...yet we must not allow ourselves to be destroyed from it...the sickness is the gift wrapped within the curse...we must not fight it...but embrace it and use it as our weapon in this world of torment and suffering...personally...eye feel existence itself is the greatest abomination of all...
Thanks...love the vocab!
Thanks...love the vocab! lol!