I just love this cd! It has so many songs on it that I can relate to; that have meant a lot to me. I was in the hospital on the release date of the cd and a friend bought it and brought it in to me so I could listen to it. Everyone who knows me well, knows how much I was looking forward to hearing it all and having it in my possession!
As I sat there in my jacked up hospital bed, sterile solitary room, feeling so disconnected from society, I put in the cd and put on my headphones and fucking jammed! I listed to Perfect Insanity and cried. Yes, I was very emotional having been in the hospital for almost 3 weeks and trying to deal with all I'd been through. I felt like I was going insane laying in there, missing out on some very important occasions that were happening with my family, namely my son's graduation commencements. The song just hit a nerve with me and I sang...apparently loud enough for others in the hall to hear me. My friend had to close the door to my room so I could just let go and enjoy a little bit of normalcy, since listening to and enjoying Disturbed in "normal" to me.
Throughout the following weeks, the more I listened to the words to the songs, I realize I could have written a lot of the songs myself. "The Curse" is my life the last 3-1/2 years.
"I've held on too long just to let it go now,
Will my inner strength get me through it some how
Defying the curse that has taken hold
Never surrender,
I'll never be overcome!"
Those lyrics get me through to tomorrow. I figured, I'd made it through so much the last few years, I can't let it overcome me now and just give in.

"In a world that I don't want to know
With a message that I never want to send
To be free from all of this
I want you to quicken my end
Don't tell me I can not go
With a wound that refuses to mend
Deliver me from all of this
I want you to quicken my end"
I hear these lyrics and think of two separate things; either the actual physical wound and prominent scar I now have from all the surgeries I've gone through, or the emotional wound I have from all that happened to me at the onset of my downward spiral years ago.

"Deceiver" makes me think of my ex-husband. "Indestructible" pushes me forward, helps me to believe that I, too, am indestructible and that I will come out on top, one of these days. When I hear "Divide" I think about how different I am from most women my age. "Facade"? ... well that's how I would describe me and what I feel most each and every day. I put up a front, but inside am crumbling. No, no one is abusing me, I'm abusing myself, putting myself through hell for all the mistakes I've made, for all the shit I've gone through. "Your façade can't disguise ,The fact that you're in misery."

In the end, I just want to thank the guys for producing such an amazing collection of material. I love each and every cd they've put out, but I think this one's the best!
Great job guys! Keep at it, my brothers!