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final hour
In our final hour
we stand here holding each other
waiting for our findal moments
untill we break free form life
and be toghter for the rest of time
Suicide
Well I have to say things work out in strange ways, as I clicked onto see the new video of INSIDE THE FIRE David was talking about suicide and how he was affected by it a number of years ago, I have to say I never thought anyone I knew would surcome to suicide until April 9th 2003 when a good friend of mine killed himself pretty much the same way as the female character of the video, it kinda set me back to the time I got the phone call of his death and I started crying, this is why this year I have decided to do something about it and try to contribute to prevention of it.
paradise
A calm wind blows
Down a medow long forgotten
The moon illuminating all
This place so peacefull
I take in the moment
I feel peace at last
Laying in the moonlight
Feeling the breeze
I never want to leave
Wish I could bring you here
So we can lay together
Let all our thoughts disipate
For this peace that is here
The sky a deep green
To get lost looking at it
The wind gentle
As it wraps arround me
The moons gaze piercing
Into my soul it looks
Cleaning it so i can see
I wish i could stay
But not ment to be
I wish for you to be here
Not only me
Follow my words
I will lead you to me
dreaming of forgiveness
could it be that i wish you were gone
could it be that i dont care anymore
could it be that my desire for you is gone now
could it be that i dont want to be here anymore
could it be that i dont want to help anymore
could it be that i just want to dissapier
could it be that i just want the world to end
could it be that i have no more strenght for you
could it be that you have taken all from me
could it be that you dont deserve it
could it be that i am waisting away in my own disease
A disease that i myself have created or one that you have placed upon my heart for me to consume so that it may consume me
could it be that you are that disease
could it be that you are trying to abuse me
could it be that you are not even there
could it be that i am just dreaming
could it be that i am just a part of your dream
could it be that i am just using you to find me
wanting what we all want
I wish you to see you smile
I wish to feel your kiss
I wish to feel your pain
I wish to see you fly
I wish to feel your touch
I wish you were real
Really here for me
I wish not to want
I wish to not want for myself
Not even that one person
Not for that person
That might make me happy
A person to be with me
How pathetic i must sound
So i will lose it now
So no one will worry
I will lose that feeling again
So i will no longer feel alone
So i can help others
Help them once again
freeze
as snow falls
everything freezes
frozen away from all
everything stops
but can still move
how to thaw the ice
wraped around the world
wraped around the heart
blood slows down
as snow piles on
the warmth leaving
how to gain it back
find that one thing
to melt the snow
free the heart
love is it
love can thaw
bring back the warmth
let the blood flow
free one more time
the love that froze
let it consume
melt the ice once again
paper dreams
The words on the page melt away
watch as they come together
going down the page along the pen
energy flows from body to ink
ink turns into minds thoughts
paper turns into a canvus of dreams
reality no longer matters on it
when transforming mind to ink
i cant break
the minds eye does not always win over the the hearts thoughts. the instinct to kill with ones own hands does not always form from the heart that wishs to kill but from a mind wishing to understand that the fillings it holds is not in its control. i wish i could! but my mind and heart will not allow such a thing for it would make a lesser person of me. with a katana in one hand and my heart in the other they fight to tell me its wrong yet they conflict if it is right! in ways i think i am going to break! but i shall not allow it to be as such. the words i speak in my head are slowly seeping in and i cant stop them. i want to break so bad...... it hurts that i cant. i wish.... i could break down and let it all out. i dont truely belong here. a time where justic was a sword and sheath is the time i belong. i want it so bad. i wish i could break.
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