Wow....very emotional! Definitely some strong lyrics here.Great song!
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This song really struck me... this song is awesome, i really sympathize for you david... these kinda thing take time to heal and i bet you hear that all the time... but i have to say you guys are an amazing band and i hope to hear your next album if there is one.

best song ever, well done guys :)

two friends of mine comited suicide last year and i havent been the same since then...
kudos to you david for being able to express your feelings in such a beautiful way

Great band great lyrics, this song has so much meaning and emotion davids supressed some for ages.

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when r u gonna make another Cd guys i would love to here some more new shit by disturbed cuz u guys r awsome to the max

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u guys are the only band that has actually made me think about life
whats more is youve made it into a KICK ASS SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!! please dont stop ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this song rocks i agree satan whispers he tried to take me as a young child so heed this call to metal and keep the metal alive and build a metal empire you're already on your way my kids will hear disturbed as they grow up

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This song is wicked under my skin. Being bipolar I channeled my darkness and depression into dark rhyming poetry...there were many times I should have been dead. I was *grins* Disturbed as a child. Just look. What kind of 14 year old writes this..

Once calm, hatred is on the prowl instead
and any hope I once used to cope is now dead
And no medication calms the howl in my head
as the blood from my wrist stains the towel red
The drilling in my brain is shattering my reality
and my conscious is now split ready to battle me
And I've met Satan, looked dead into his eyes
drowining in my sorrow thats bred from his lies
I've used drugs but my skeletons wont be sated
gazed into the cracked mirror, to see its me I hated
Butchered my brain, as the pain wore at my heart
and the cost of loss just tore me apart
What happens when you find you have nothing left
Your out of control and your spirit is bereft
You look back at your life and it's just shit
you give, not wanting to live but you must submit..

And sometimes the mind still wanders. David , you probably wont read this but I am really impressed by this song and its something close to home. He always does whisper in our ears doesnt he...

Wow David You Got Guts For Making A Song Abput This.
But Not A Good Thing for her to do that.
so sorry that happened david!!

One More Thing

Keep The Metal Alive!!!

IM A DISTURBED ONE

I have to say this video struck close to home with me also. In february of 2007 my sister attempted suicide by hanging, but thankfully it was a failed attempt. She spent almost a week in the hospital. I just wanted to say thank you to Disturbed for touching on such a sensitive subject. I wish there was more public education on the subject. It should not be one that is talked about in hushed tones. Family members, loved ones and friends of people who committ or attempt suicide should not feel ashamed to talk about it. Thankfully we got a second chance with my sister, unfortunately not so many people are that lucky. It was a very difficult experience and now when we know about a situation that could throw her right back into an emotional nosedive, we make sure that someone is there with her. My heart goes out to all affected by this.

Yet again the guys have managed to stir emotions and evoke thought with their music...this is the real deal, none of your la la la i'm so sad shit, real music for real LIFE!
Yes, I too have experience of attempted suicide within my family and I myself have personally battled the demons of suicide.
This video had me almost breathless with emotion from David's intro.
Just wanna say THANK YOU for getting this subject out there a tad more, if more people talk about it, it will become less and less of a taboo subject.

Your Faithful Servant~Sweetpoison x

I have to admit that I cried watching this video. My friend just went through this exact situation. Her boyfriend/babies father did this at the beginning of september. Everytime he said something about harming himself or doing something of this sorts, she was right behind him to stop him. This last time, they had an argument, he didn't say anything of what he was going to do...so, she sat and cried. He actually did it, and when she heard him, she tried to get to him, and didn't get to him in time to stop him... He didn't die though. He is now in a permanant coma. The day after it happened thier daughter said "Daddy's dying isn't he" Which makes us believe that she saw him either do it, or shortly there after before they could get him down. It tore my heart out to hear that. But she (My friend) is starting to do ok. His family tried blaming her for it. I just wish no one would have to go through this pain. I know too many people who have attempted, and unfortunately a few who succeeded.

I love all of disturbed's songs and videos I have watched. Loved the band since it started. I love music, especially music I can relate to. David, I am so sorry you have had to deal with this pain in your life. It is something that no one should have to go through. Even though I know it hurt to make this video, I am glad you did. Its a great video and I like the idea of posting the hotline at the beginning, suicide is a serious matter. We lose to many people before it's thier time.
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Disturbed definitaley knows how to strike a chord with every album they have released, and this video is NO EXCEPTION!

In all seriousness, I do feel bad for David having to go back and remember this incident that he holds close to him. Suicide is no joke!!!

Never the less, GREAT VIDEO!

commtting suicide is a heinous thing and is self-fish u completely crush the ones around u whether or not u think they do or dont care about you

WHEN THE WORLD SAYS FUCK YOU, SAY FUCK YOU BACK AND HIT 'EM WHERE THE SUN DONT SHINE!!!!

shamefully though i admit my hypocrisy that i am contemplating suicide cuz i have no one to look to or talk to, im isolated and dying but no one can tell i have friends who dont see me and a family that only pretends to care if that i could probably make a difference if i was older but now im deserted on that island and cant swim i have nothing to look up to and nothing for me im just another number in my mind im dying and i cant get out

commtting suicide is a heinous thing and is self-fish u completely crush the ones around u whether or not u think they do or dont care about you

WHEN THE WORLD SAYS FUCK YOU, SAY FUCK YOU BACK AND HIT 'EM WHERE THE SUN DONT SHINE!!!!

shamefully though i admit my hypocrisy that i am contemplating suicide cuz i have no one to look to or talk to, im isolated and dying but no one can tell i have friends who dont see me and a family that only pretends to care if that i could probably make a difference if i was older but now im deserted on that island and cant swim i have nothing to look up to and nothing for me im just another number in my mind im dying and i cant get out

this song is close to me because when i was 7 my mom commited suicide because my son of a bitch father cheated on her. I came home and saw her with a knife in her chest i was on the street for about two months without anything or anybody all i had was my first guitar and so i got into it and started writing songs about my mom and about other stuff that got me then when i heard this song that was what i was feeling.

I always love all disturbed songs...they always have so much meaning to them

But there was a time when my mom was so depressed for about 3 years she wouldn't get out of bed...I was so young I always thought I was home alone...but she was just in bed...my dad (her husband of 15 years and the love of her life) cheated on her with her older sister (who was her everything...her rock...her base in life)...it could have been any other woman my dad went with but he took her sister from her and our family...our family if forever broken...but when she was depressed she wanted to just...not wake up anymore and the only reason she didnt commit suicide was because of me...she knew I was too young and I still needed her and if she left I would have had a horrible life...thankfully she never did and now she is in a relationship with someone new person (a girl she met through work) who loves her so much and our relationship is so close and strong...I dont know what I would do without my mother...I dont know the pain some of the people who have replied to this song have gone through...I just know it got really close for me and if it would have happened I thin k eventually I would have wanted to take my place inside the fire with her...because she was always my everything

quinn mcclain David just so you know they dont actually let you keep your piercings while in a staightjacket. I have tried suicide several time Guns jammed, ropes snapped noblood would flow, then I figured that God must have a higher purpose for me, Im not smart enough to figure out what it is, I once walked out in the morning sun and saw my best friend hanging from a flag pole. I couldnt understand why, and then as I grew odler there were what I thought were good reasons. I was wrong and another good friend of mine hung herself I wished I had told her that I was in love with her and the pain was sharp and trobbing. your dipiction of this crisis that has filled america is one of the best form of therapy that I have ever seen.Thankyou for writing this song and I am sorry that your lifewas touched in this way it hurts, and it never really goes away every time I seee your video I think of susie and what life she could have had for herself. THOUGh there isnt a song that your band has written or covered that I have not loved thiis is a very powerful statement that you have made so keep up the great music a fan for life Drummer Quinn.

being a 13 year old rape victome, suicide has crossed my mind many times.but then i thought about all the things and people i would be leaving behind and the pain i would cause them. at first i saw the less disturbing version of this video. then i saw this and cried in the corner for a long time. david, here is an imaginary hug just for you. stay strong for all of us.

i agree with you my lil brother is trying and he is 14 yrs old i blame it on my self for abandoning my family for 3 and a half yrs that was when he was 8yrs old so when i left my lil bro was a troubled kid buti am back and have been back with my mom and brothers and have been for 4 almost 5 yrs and i don't plan on leaving ever again unless college takes me farther but he tryed to kill him self again after his dad passed away so ui am trying to make up for lost time trying to be a positive in fluence i hope it works and i have also told him he has a lot to look forward to cuz he is still young.

i understand this vid i know how bad suicide can be and how it effects people

i love this vid

Hey David,
I just want to let you know that I completely understand your pain of losing someone you love to suicide. I also lost a person I loved when I was a teenager. His name was Brunson & he shot himself in the head when he was only 16. Only someone who has lost another by suicide can understand how it truly feels & affects you for the rest of your life. I have thought of Brunson everyday for the past 18 years & will everyday for the rest of my life.
Keep rockin' & putting out the kickass music that I love & can't wait to hear more of.

Oh David,

I know your pain. Suicide attempts run in my family unfortunately. My younger sister, Stephanie, attempted suicide several times in her young life from age 12 to age 18. I blame it mainly on my abusive father and partially due to medications later on. Luckily, she has found religion, is married and is now the happy mom of my baby neice. If she had succeeded, i don't know what i would have done. My Mom tried to commit suicide when she was gang raped as a teenager. And so did my Aunt and Grandma. For some reason suicide has never crossed my mind.

Around the same time, i had a senior high school friend named Joe, who was very talented both musically and artistically. He had a scholarship to a University lined up when he graduated. One spring break day, my sister called me from a friends house saying she had seen an article about Joe's death. I thought she was playing a mean joke. Then when i turned on the TV,I saw headlines of a unidentified family homicide/suicide. I still couldn't believe it till i found out from another friend the whole story. Joe's dad was an Air Force Captain who was having a lot of personal issues. Joe's family had tried counseling but nothing was changing. Then one night, when Joe and his family were asleep, his father took a handgun with a silencer attached and killed everyone in their sleep. Joe had two other siblings younger than him. Then Joe's father turned the gun on himself and committed suicide. I found out from the investigation that Joe had woken up and struggled with his father before he was shot. I was beside myself. I went to school the next day and said a prayer for him before the announcement of his death over the school's intercom. I will never forget him or that day.

My heart goes out to you David for your loss. We must cherish life till we are no longer on this earth.

I give credit to those who care about suicide prevention. A lot of people don't realize how serious it is, and even taunt those who are serious. A sensitive subject not many people speak about, I believe it should be spoken about more. Death, in its true essence, is not amusing whatsoever. Personally, I can relate. I was suicidal for a number of years in my life. I did self harm, and had thoughts/plans of the actual act itself. I knew it wasn't healthy, but I didn't know who to turn to. Thankfully I had a friend who was my support unconditionally. I didn't seek professional help in the end, I kind of drifted back into life. They were dark years. Even years after, I still get into the state for a while. My mother also attempted suicide before I was born, that story no one will tell. Anyway, bottom line is suicide is a big issue and one of the leading deaths, believe it or not. Take it seriously. And my sympathies to David. Thanks Disturbed for are making an effort to help.

The thing i love about disturbed is that all of thier songs have a meaning, you just have to listen to the lyrics.

yo i agree suicide sucks ass i had a few ex girlfriends nearly kill themselves although this does not mean i nkow the affects of suisice on survivors i do know this song fucking rocks

Suicide is not easy epitaxially for the one left behind

I can in some terms relate as my mother temped to commit suicide once and she didn't succeed. She blamed it on me as I wasn't living at home.. When I was younger I couldn't stop how to end my life back then .. plenty times thought about it and well didn't have much nerve to do it. More or less it came down to how many people it would affect. All we have is past memories that haunt us do we move on or harbor them so we don't move on ???? As for me I have to much to live for now all i have in me is to fight for what is right. I live because of my kids ... long story to that .. Nobody ever said live was ever gonna be easy.. It only comes down to what you make it ...

Poor David. I had no idea what this song was really about until I saw this video.............I feel so sorry for him. My uncle commited suicide back before I was born. This video really got me thinking. I'm so grateful I wasn't around when that happened. I don't think I would've been able to handle it. Still though, I love this song and can't stop listening to it! I'm like addicted to it. Disturbed is frickin awesome!!!!

this song is awesome!:)

you got lucky. 11 months ago, my best friend OD'ed on a bunch of pain killers, too. but she left school to go home and do it, and her mom was at work. she did it on purpose, and it's sad because she did it 2 months before her 16th birthday. she had no idea how much she meant to everyone, and she was 2nd in our class because she was a genius. almost the entire sophomore class showed up to her funeral, and all of her teachers did. i saw this video last march or so, and i started bawling because it hit me so hard. this is exactly how i felt when she committed suicide. i also had an experience when i was 4 with my dad. i dont remember it that much, but its still sad thinking that your own dad hated his life enough that he took it away. but i understand exactly where David is coming from!!! there's no way that i could make a song about what happened to my friend... that takes true dedication to your music, Dave.

awesome song, awesome vid, awesome band!!!!!

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Disturbed has done it again!

The video is great, although I feel really bad for Dave, having to revisit his past.

The song is a firebomb, that explodes from the very beginning, and wraps you within it till the very end.

His wicked laugh is insatiable, and down-right maniacal, but a great beginning to the song.

I saw the guys perform at the Rockstar Meyhem Fest Tour in Tinley Park, IL and they practically blew the roof off of the place.

All I have to say is this.....

With 4 chart topping albums and kick-ass videos, DISTURBED has solidified themselves as Alternative Metals greatest success.

Matthew Ocana your music kick ass my favorite songs are down with the sickness, inside the fire, land of confusion, stricken,voices,prayer

W.M /../ This song really makes people stronger. And the solo kicks ass :) We all know that Dave & Band earn freaking much money. But especially Dave has earned it. All he have been through...

this song is awesome!!

I watched it and sobbed like a little girl! Afterward, all I wanted was to put my arms around David and comfort him. I could feel his pain, despair and devastation. It is hard enough to lose a loved one to death (I lost my mother years ago. I watched her die in agony), especially to suicide. I can't get over the intensity of this video. I believe it is just the kind of video that should be shown everywhere, especially to teens and young adults who are so susceptible to give in to suicide. This video should be in the classrooms!

I don't know how David managed to shoot this video. It must have been devastating! His pain and devastation at finding his girlfriend hanging are so powerful! He voices the pain and devastation of the effect of suicide on families and other loved ones. I find it impossible to contemplate suicide after watching this video. I could never put my son through such horror. And, believe me, the idea had crossed my mind quite often in these past few years. We all have our traumas and demons to deal with and, I am certainly no exception. I've had more than a fair share of them since childhood. Perhaps, that's why I have felt such a strong spiritual connection with this group, especially David. His voice, the passion and anger in his voice reflect my own.

To the other fans that have posted here and shared their own struggle with the idea of suicide, I trust that after watching this video, you have come to the same conclusion: Better to prove those who put you down wrong and pour your energy into constructive endeavors rather than give them the satisfaction to see you end your life, this includes fighting the demons inside inciting you to do it. No one knows what happens to us once we leave this world but we have given a great gift: life! The outcome of our lives is determined by the choices we make; suicide is not an option. You are much stronger than you give yourselves credit for and, you have the power inside to defeat your demons. Don't be a real loser, don't give in. I can assure you that as you journey through this life, you'll become stronger and will conquer hurdles you never imagined you could. Take it from me, I've been through just about it all in my life from child abuse, parental neglect and rejection, broken heart, losing loved ones, surviving a civil war/dictatorship, homelessness, to domestic violence. Through all the tears and sorrows, despite the anguish and pain, I've grown "Indestructible" and can shout to the world, I win because "I'm Alive". Like the poem I wrote to my son while we were at a DV shelter, A Path To Happiness, I say to you,

Hear the call
in your heart.

Follow the way
your spirit leads you.

Don't give in
to the ways of the world . . .

Be true to yourself
even when others around you
Don't understand or approve.

Recognize and use your talents wisely.

Don't misuse your uniqueness or,
waste your special gifts.

You are not less important
than anyone else in this world is.

Everyone has a unique part to play.

You are special.

Your part is vital in the scheme of life.

Always remember that
whatever you do, good or bad,
will certainly
come back to you
a thousand fold.

Do what you know in your heart
to be right,
understanding
that you are an irreplaceable
link
in the big chain of events.

Discover the purpose
behind the situations
and events in your life,

Your role, your lessons . . .

Everything,
whether it brings you
joy or sorrow,
is an opportunity
for your growth.

Learn to discover how
everything in your life
is linked
in the scheme of things.

Realize that
we are all part of
The Whole.

Appreciate the big picture
to which your life belongs.

Believe in yourself and God,
whatever your concept of
Him might be.

He will provide you with
the inner strength and means
to accomplish your goals and
to overcome
the challenges along your path.

You must follow
the call within you or,
you will never
find peace and happiness
in this life.

Only then,
you will be able to spread
your wings and fly,

Truly free to meet your destiny . . .

This video and song are so frickin awesome!
That he oculd go thru that, and then manage to not only get on with his life but come out on top and be able to sing about it... wow.
David you are my frickin idol, I love you!

Take the word of one immortal....

It's a very tough to deal with ,suicide, I just went through a situation like this, but it was my dad, he od'ed on a bunch of pain killers and shit but I was able to get to him before it was too late and saved his life. I just want to say that thanks for the great music, keep rockin, and your band has helped me on the path to becoming INDESTRUCTIBLE!!!

it was his girlfriend from high school who killed herself, thats wat this song is about. she od'ed on heroin and her parents blamed david for it:(

a metalhead,a maggot,a disturbed one, but most importantly, an aggressive mother fucker!!!!!

rock on, stay sic, keep metal alive\m/(0_o)\m/

thanx for the number, i come across a lot of people who might need it.

This video is rad

Disturbed rocks!!!!!!!! I just cant get enough of this song or video. Scott

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I was wondering who it was the you lost to suicide. A really close friend of mine almost killed himself but i stop him he already to the pills but i took the gun away from him.If you would like to let me know that would be great so i can understand the video more.i really like the song and the video very much.

Royal Rocker, that video kicks ass and no matter how many times i listen to the song or watch the video i think that song fuckin rocks. Disturbed keep makin them and i'll keep listening keep up the good work love the new album. see you guys here in colorado.

man.. no matter how many times i watch this video, it always gives me chills..lol

perfect song and great video keep on rocking disturbed